12:34:56 07/08/09

July 8, 2009

Make a wish! The next time this strange lining of these digits in your clock will be in the year 3009. 

It’s Never Too Selfish To Say Goodbye

July 7, 2009

Thought Start: 10:39 PM

Thought End: 11:45

Spot: KP 01 - 018

I’m getting faster at typing. It’s been four years in this call center. My fingertips have become accustomed to the keys of the IBM kb I was given. Typing away thoughts, call logs, IM chats, proxy websites and love-laiden inuendos to one guy. I feel like blogging again. It’s been awhile and I need the release. I achieve certain levels of emotional high when my thoughts and my tap tap on the kb are in sync. 

Our lives will always be jutted with hellos and fuck-you-get-off-of-my-lifes. And as we all know by now the goodbyes are pretty hard to go through. Just now ML IMd me asking for some cash. It’s the most inevitable IM from her every week-before payday. I’m quick with my rebuttal for that kind of unwarranted cash-out. More on people in the office who borrow money from me in the next posts.

Can you recall the many goodbyes you have to live through? We’ve been to alot that we’ve become numb and and expert with going back to our normal earthbound tasks. Yet, nothing no past goodbye will ever prepare us for the next one. 

There’s a bitter-sweet feel in the office now. YG is leaving for another company. I can’t imagine what office-life would be like without her. One and only person I can crawl back at and say that she’s hurt me and would actually be apologetic for it. 

It’s sad when people do not acknowledge that they’ve hurt you. JA is not an exception to that brood. Unwritted rule with friends is that you don’t mess with your friends dude or girl. Yeah yeah I’m not with that guy. But who is he kidding. No straight guy, like he claims himself to be, would publicize on Facebook or put in his MSN messenger shout out “updates” about his friendship with his newly found BFF. Faggots! Well, I used to think that I started the rumor mill but like what YG said, things are taking a different turn now. They’re attracting rumors to themselves now. I don’t regret each day that I dont talk to him. Being civil with people like him is detrimental to my character. Yes I see the friendship ending. Nobody cares about my hurt feelings so why should I care back. Karma in action.

For nearly a month now I haven’t talked to him. I just want the issue to die down. Yeah people here in the office would say Oh youre just bored so much that you weave all this drama. Well let me tell you this: people are good with labelling other people. Never has it occured to them that I might actually have feelings for that person. So yeah up yours bitches. Again no use explaining myself of my sudden withdrawal from the other 2 people coz you got me all figured out, right? 

Let me wrap it up. Saying goodbye for personal reasons is good. All our lives we’ve let people say goodbye to us. We have been conditioned by the movies that we see and the media that it’s better to wallow in tears as somebody closes the door on our faces than be the one who’s on the other side of that door. It’s not selfish. At the end of the day you are the most important in the world in your life. We only live once take the exit if it’s necessary.